~~ THE END ~~
~~ Laura Pausini - It's Not Goodbye ~~
Now what if I never kiss your lips again
or feel the touch of your sweet embrace.
How would I ever go on?
Without you there´s no place to belong
Well someday love is going to lead you back to me
but till it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
somewhere out there you're thinking of me
Until the day I let you go,
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
there will be no tears to cry on down the road
there is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye
You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
and rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
when you've been missing somebody so long
It's just a matter of time I'm sure
but time takes time and I can't hold on
so won't you try as hard as you can
to put my broken heart together again?
Until the day I let you go,
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye.
Till I see you again
I'll be right here remembering when
And if time is on our side
there will be no tears to cry on down the road
there is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye
I had enough of it and this is it... the last entry for my webjournal in blogspot.com... sorry to everyone who is a blogspot.com/blogger.com fan... it's not because of their services... i agree their services is good... but it's a matter of traffic in my corporate network... (gracefully said) it is not powerful enough to handle heavy-coded pages such as blogspot.. and some other website like website built in flash and other badly-coded webportal also cannot get through our internet gateway... even though we do have a cache server to keep all most-viewed webpages, those cache server also unable to update itself as frequent as possible... that's why i'm always seeing my old entry at the top of the blog even though 5 minutes ago i updated it... and the most reason why i'm leaving blogspot/blogger is because the blogger itself frequently keeps deleting or keeps cutting half my template codings without my knowledge... as u seen my blog for the past 2 days ago... it's empty right?? it's annoying that i have to do restoring the template coding all the time... so sad that i have to leave blogspot.com and blogger.com... i don't know whether it will be last forever or not... maybe sometimes (or maybe not...) when the network is going back to normal... i can write back in here... but somehow i think that i will not opened it forever unless my heart is strong enough to recover my past time... like a diary, some people will burned it if they don't want to see the diary again... but what the heck i'm going to burn the blogger/blogspot server??? hehehe... maybe i'll leave it online until i don't know when...
and today, I... with all the honours... welcoming you all to........
it's not quite finished yet... so from time to time i will add more feature in it... and it also quite fast in loading time from this one (i'm pretty sure of it ;))... so, enjoy ur self and ur life as much as u can... k...
dan jemput-jemputlah datang ke rumah saya yang baru.. hihihi... see u there...
SmS games...
Today, I'm feeling quite good... as last night i'm having fever + tired... semalam, aku tido agak (atau terlampau) awal... lebih kurang pukul 21:00 hour selepas makan nasi lemak berempah + 2 biji panadol... and found out to be awaken at 02:00 hour... memula tu aku ingat ader orang main video game kat TV kat umah... tapi setahu aku kitorang tak penah pun ader PS2... XBox pun takdak... apatah lagi murah punya videogame... bila aku tengok kat ruang tamu... barulaa aku tau yang cik isom kiter tertido disaksikan oleh TV... dan inilah pertama kali aku pernah tengok dalam sejarah hidup aku kat Channel 9 (agaknya kot.. time tu aku mamai lagik...) ader sebuah game tembak-tembak yang boleh dimainkan secara multiplayer menggunakan sms... siap bole chatting sesama player lagi... it's good to have the game... game tu macam game worms kat PC... ramai plak tu player yang main time tu... tapi bukankah ianya membazir... 1 sms je dah berapa dah... terpikir plak... rakyat malaysia especially orang bandar ni kaya betul ye... bukan stakat kaya, pemurah gak... sanggup mengkayakan telco kita... skang ni pun dah bermacam-macam jenis benda berasaskan sms kita dah tengok... dengan ringtonenya... undian smsnya... live chatting kat tv guna sms... dan ntah apa-apa lagilah... teringin nak tau, berapa agaknya spending seseorang rakyat malaysia untuk hanset dia sebulan ye??
anyway, aku still rasa demam aku tak kebah lagi... walaupun body temperature dah okey... kena tido lama sikit nampaknya hari ini...
tension giler...
Today, i'm in the mood of tension... mostly, mood dah ilang... malas nak layan orang... apa yang aku rasa aku nak buat ari ni aku tak buat... rasa cam nak balik rumah awal dan tido jer... geram betul... aku benci bila aku tengah buat keje aku ada orang lain suh buat keje lain... dan aku paling pantang bila keje aku macam diperkecilkan... dan paling frust bila ada yang ingat aku takde keje nak dibuat (same old case)... abis tu keje aku sapa nak buat?? aku gak... tadi pun aku gi jumpa Che Zan, aku tak cakap banyak pun... just listen and mostly say "Oooo... ok..." bila time-time camni mulalaa aku terpikir nak cari keje kat tempat lain... ntahlaa... takde apa sangat yang aku buat ari ni disebabkan kepala aku dah takleh pikir lagi... dah jammed... pagi tadi bangun pun rasa cam nak demam... nak berdiri pun kepala dah melayang... nasib baik cepat ok... kalau tak, aku datang keje tengah hari jelaa... menjelang petang, aku rasa badan aku takleh nak tahan sejuk dan kepala aku tengah bengang... lastly, kepala aku jammed... dan aku duduk tak buat apa-apa selama sejam sambil pejam mata (tapi bukan tido)... trying to restarting the brain... hopefully getting a fresh brain tomorrow...
when i'm not updated...
maybe some people wondering... "why i'm not updating my blog as frequent as possible??" there might be lost of visitors when i'm not updated... and the answer is... not becoz i'm lack of idea... but most of the time, it's not my fault... it all becoz of the internet access who connected to my office network is currently extremely very-very slow... (opss.. switching to BM..) rasanya network kat sinie dah cukup power dah... sume fac disambungkan dengan menggunakan fiber optic cable... LAN speed pun dah mencecah 100 Mbps... contohnya cam semalam... dari pagi sampailaa aku nak balik haram sekali pun aku takleh nak bukak blog aku... and then, coding blog aku asik hilang setengah jer... tu baru tinggalkan 6 hari... kalau tak bukak sebulan gaknya terus expired kot... nak download mp3 yang bersaiz 3MB siap bole tido dulu sejam baru siap... ntahlaa... agaknya dah berapa kali ye aku mention pasal benda nih dalam blog aku... bukannya aku takleh terima sume nih... baguslaa ader daripada takder... even aku pun rasa cam takleh nak idup kalau takder internet access nih... hehehe... tapi yang sakit hatinya bila ramai sangat yang complaint kat aku pasal ni dan aku plak takleh nak buat apa-apa untuk setelkannya... makin lama makin benganglaa... jawapan paling best penah aku bagi... "ntahlaa prof... BTM buat apa? buat bodo jer laa"... that was the main reason beside that i haven't a single idea what to write becoz of my dull life...
back to my holiday last weekend... hehehe... aku mendapat laporan yang my boss marah giler pasal aku tak inform dia aku nak cuti ari tu... tulaa keje paling giler penah aku buat kat dalam opis nih... masa sampai kat kampung tu risau gak sebab tak apply cuti officially... lagipun, bulan ni agak kritikal untuk aku... tapi alhamdulillah semalam ok jer boss aku tu... tak kena sound pun... mood tengah ok kot... hehehe... agaknya kalau aku buat camni kat company lain (except company bapak aku of course ;)) memang dah kena fired on 24 hour notice gaknya... takpelah... citer dah lepas... lepas ni malas nak buat lagi dah... anyway, agenda aku kat umah ialah... tido.. tido.. dan tido... hehehe... selain ikut parents aku pegi mana-mana diorang suka...
satu perkara je masa aku balik kampung yang menyentuh perasaan aku ialah bila aku baru jer sampai umah, tetiba je ader orang datang menjemput aku dengan abah gi kenduri... yang aku tak tahu ialah kenduri tu adalah untuk Allahyarham Mohamed Bin Abd. Rahman... atau dikenali dengan En. Sahak... bekas cikgu yang ngajar aku camner nak baca start dari Muqaddam hinggalah aku dapat khatam al-Quran... yang sedihnya, aku tak tahu pun yang Allahyarham dah meninggal... kata mak aku dah lama dah dan aku pun ada perasan gak macam aku dah lama tak nampak Allahyarham... so, masa lepak depan umah sebelum start majlis, aku borak-borak dengan yas.. sambil teringat kembali camner nakalnya aku masa dulu-dulu... main-main dengan bebudak yang lain... dengan ponteng ngajinya... siap bole melencong pegi kedai tu instead of pegi ngaji... then, agak-agak dah okey skit jer baru balik umah... berlagak cam dah abis ngaji... hehehe... ingat lagi camner aku terpatahkan wiper van En. sahak, pastu gi letak atas cermin dia dan buat tak tau jer... tapi dia tau... hehehe... cuma dia tak sampai hati jer nak marah aku... banyak lagilaa kenakalan aku yang aku pun dah ingat-ingat lupa... tapi atas jasanya mengajarkanku al-Quran memang tak ternilai harganya... yang menyebabkan aku boleh score baik subjek Al-Quran dan Bahasa Arab masa sekolah agama dulu... apapun, al-Fatihah buat Allahyarham... semoga roh beliau dicucuri rahmat hendaknya... amin...
